Just a couple short years ago, I went through one of the darkest times in my life. I’ve never really written about it in full detail, but I feel like there are many other people out there who struggle with this that need to know there IS Hope! It doesn’t have to be this way forever.
After losing our son Hosea, experiencing a couple job losses, a move, and another pregnancy and birth, my body said, “All done!” It was bad enough to be walking through the deepest loss I could ever imagine when I found our one month old baby boy’s lifeless body in his baby bed, but now my body was manifesting all sorts of symptoms that left me pretty much dysfunctional in normal, daily life. With three other children to care for, a business to run, and a husband to love, I felt desperate for something to change!
It was immediately following the birth of our 4th child, Asher, that I started to experience unbelievable pain. I had pain from head to toe…so bad my hair even hurt. Light hurt. It was like the light penetrated through my body and would send shooting pain down my spine and through my skull. The pain was so intense that I lived in a constant state of nauseousness. I dreaded going to sleep at night because the sheets hurt and my pillow hurt. I would wake up in worse pain then when I laid down I felt so bad for my husband who patiently loved me through every morning episode of tears and working my feet to the floor to take the first painful step. The worst was waking up with a migraine after a full night’s sleep. I had somewhere between 15-20 days with a migraine every month. I would get one and it would last sometimes for 4-5 days. Nathan had to come pick me up from stores at times because I would have a migraine so bad that I couldn’t see straight.
I couldn’t believe what was happening. I was only 28. How in the world was I going to be able to take care of an infant, play with him on the floor as he got older, play basketball with him as he grew up? I lived scared to death that I would never be normal again. I braced myself every time the girls ran to hug me. The pain shot through my body as their little arms wrapped around my neck. What in the world was happening to me and would I ever feel better? I was 28 and felt like I was 90! Doing normal, every day things were impossible. Physically I was a wreck, and this wreaked havoc on me emotionally and mentally.
The label I received for all the pain was “Fibromyalgia.” This is basically what they tell you that you have when they can’t figure out what in the world is going on in your body.
It was at this all time low in my life, physically, emotionally, and mentally, that I started to ask God if He was a healer. Does He still really heal people today? This was a question I was desperate to have answered….and I needed a “yes.” I knew if He didn’t heal me, I wouldn’t make it much longer. I really and truly felt at times like I would die from the pain.
This was an important discovery for me on my journey with fibromyalgia: Fibromyalgia is really nothing more than a physical response of the body when you have had internal trauma (oftentimes suppressed) or intense stress or a long period of time. This is why a doctor can not just give you a pill to make it all go away. They can give you pills to MASK the pain but you will have to stay on it for the rest of your life. It doesn’t HEAL it or take it away because so much of this illness is an internal issue, I really believe. Others may have different experiences, but this is what my own personal experience was.
In my case, my physical body literally held on to the stress and trauma at the cellular level and it manifested in my body through pain, fatigue, and migraines. We are 3 part beings…body, soul, and spirit. And what is happening in one part most often effects the other two parts. We can’t separate or compartmentalize our lives. It all functions together as one. It’s like if you have a stressful day at work…what does your physical body do? It may respond with a headache or exhaustion. What does your spirit do? You tend to be on edge, easily explode, ect. It all works together.
Below is how God personally DID heal me. I’m not saying it will be this way for everyone! This is simply my story and the steps that I took toward healing of something that I never thought I’d recover from.
HEALING FOR ME WAS 3-FOLD
1. Physical
If you struggle with fibromyalgia, start doing what you can in the physical immediately! This is the easiest one to attach because it simply involves adding in high powered nutrients that will combat the stress, fatigue, and pain. The other two parts may take more time to work through, so my philosophy was, “While I’m working out the stuff in my head and heart, I’m going to start feeding my body the right things so I can get somewhere!” My “magic” concoction was actually very simple and surprisingly effective!! I was desperate and would have eaten a cow if you told me that would help me. Thankfully, it was way easier than eating a cow.
My daily regimen included:
- Vitalizer (the foundational nutrients EVERYONE needs in a handy 30 day pack)
- Protein (I used Cinch)
- Vivix (This was big for me! Reverses aging at the cellular level. This disease causes cell deterioration and pre-mature aging of cells, causing all the symptoms. Vivix is proven to reverse the 4 key mechanisms of cellular aging. I noticed a huge difference)
As I learned more, I discovered that B and C are the Stress Vitamins (they help protect your body from Stress reactions, but are used up quickly under stress). I was VERY deficient in both due to lots of stress and major trauma. Some may not need this extra boost, but I did. I started taking 15 Sustained Release C (3, 5 x a day) and 10 B Complex (2, 5 x a day) and that was it. I became a NEW person!! The solution for me was SO simple!!! My body just wasn’t getting enough of the vitamins that would protect me from the terrible effects of stress (stress releases cortisol which is highly destructive to the body).
Start small and work up, or go all in like I did if you’re desperate. You are guaranteed to feel better!
2. Spiritual
During this journey, I really began to understand that the “tongue has the power of life and death." I’d spent a lifetime speaking, believing, and thinking so many negative thoughts that my brain (and body) were toxic as a result. I’d been speaking death over myself…almost literally. This little truth was so freeing to me and as I changed my speech, thoughts, and beliefs, I began to see the positive results even in my physical body!
Another aspect that brought much healing to me was that I started to choose to believe God DID actually heal people. I grew up in an environment that really didn’t believe these things, but I had seen a friend healed of Muscular Dystrophy, a deaf man’s ears opened, and enough other occurrences with my own two eyes that I’d be crazy not to believe! (looking back, I believe the reason I’d never seen this before was because I didn’t believe. I’d made up my mind about what God does and doesn’t do and therefore missed out on a huge part of who He is!!)
3. Emotional
The body oftentimes will manifest the state of the soul. Ever heard the old proverb, “Bitterness rots the bones.” ?? Bitterness and unforgiveness have been scientifically proven to cause diseases such as arthritis and even cancer. Unforgiveness is a poison that corrodes the person who holds onto it, not the one whom we are angry with. I’m sure most of us know that our bitterness always hurts us more than it hurts the other person.
This was so true in my own life. I had much anger that I’d held on to for years from childhood stuff that had happened out of my control. And, I hate to say, I had a lot of anger and unforgiveness towards God that I also had to work through.
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I am so happy to say that I have been healed completely of Fibromyalgia. I traveled to Bora Bora, NYC, Atlantis, Bahamas, California twice, Philadelphia, Florida, Dallas, St. Louis, and other places this year. Traveling used to kick my butt and take me out of the game for days. But this past year I traveled 25 out of the 52 weekends of the year and lived to tell about it pain free!
I still take my daily Vitalizer, Vivix, and Protein. If I’m speaking, have a stressful day at work or with kids, or just am running out of steam, I increase the amount of B-Complex and Sustained Release C that I have to combat the effects of the stress. It works every time! I’ve learned to carry B and C in my purse at all times. 
I’m not sure if this will help anyone else who is walking through something similar, or if this was just for my own good to get all this out tonight, but I pray that someone can find Hope that life doesn’t have to be full of chronic pain. DON’T receive the Doctor’s diagnosis. YOU can change the situation with the 3 steps I listed above. It’s amazing how much of a role each one of us plays in our own healing and well-being.
I heard a disturbing, but true statistic from the Surgeon General: 93% of hospitalizations are self-induced. Stress being the number one reason for sickness and disease.
I’ve personally experienced this and have a strong desire to see people set free from the awful grip that stress , trauma, and other self-destructive behaviors can have on us.
I hope this helps someone else find natural relief for what Drs say has no solution and for what I thought I’d never see gone from my life!!! I’m happy to say IT’S GONE! Please let me know if you or someone you know struggles with this! I’d love to hear from you.
Please let me know if you or someone you know struggles with this! I’d love to hear from you.Side Note:
As I mentioned, my fibromyalgia caused me to have terrible migraines. The B and C helped tremendously with my migraines, but if I ever get a migraine, I’ve learned a great “trick” to take the migraine away immediately. I take another Vitalizer strip, drink a huge glass of water, stop what I’m doing completely for a few minutes to close my eyes, and it works like magic within 10-15 minutes!!! It has worked every time!!! So take your Vitalizerin the morning, and then carry an additional strip!! It’s a couple buck “fix”, but SO worth it rather than popping Excedrin or some other prescription drug for migraines that, for me, were typically stress related, causing my body to deplete vital nutrients, leaving me feeling horrible. I’ve learned how to stop the cycle.
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